Support offered

In church while waiting for the meetings to begin I sat down with my pencil and paper and started to make out my "to do list". I generally wait until Sunday night to do that but I had the time so I started early.
This weeks list is very different form those in the past. It is not a week filled with service projects this time but a week filled with a battle plan.
I recognize the need to get everything in order. The first thing is to get my support system in place. Who will take care of the farm and my critters in my absence? In reality it should be Brian/Dad but I do not know if he has it within himself to do what needs to get done. He gets too overwhelmed by all the responsibilities and then he gives up. He has relied heavily on me to carry the work load on the farm and now that along with the care that I might need will be placed upon his shoulders. He has always said that he has loved me for my independence and the fact that I could take care of myself. I wonder if he will still love me when I become a burden to him. This illness will test the true strength of our marriage.
Today when we got home from church there was were two calls waiting for us. One from Cindy and one from Marsha. Cindy wanted me to call her. Marsha called to offer to come and help me if and when I need help. I have stayed with her twice for weeks on end to help her through tough times in her life and although I never asked for anything in return perhaps this is one blessing that I can not turn down. Right now she is disabled and no longer able to work at a regular job. She is at a low point in her life so perhaps through service she will be lifted and receive the Gospel in her life. If this disease and trial has come to me to help lift another then I will bear the weight of it without complaint.