Trials, Blessings, Patience, Promises

I received another phone call from the hospital yesterday afternoon and the oncologist has requested more tests. They are in the process of trying to find out what stage I am at with this cancer. I am to report to the hospital 1-1/2 hours earlier this morning. They want a CAT Scan of my chest. I wish they would have just done that when they did the one of the abdomen as now I have to go through the process of the steroids and the Benadryl all over again to prevent me from having an allergic reaction to the drugs they have to give me for the CAT scan. I have been praying that it has not spread beyond the abdominal cavity.
Last night Brian and I each received a blessing from our Home Teachers. It sounds like this ordeal is going to really beat me down but that I will survive it as the Lord still has work for me to do upon this earth. My plans for the spring and summer will have to be put on hold . I was told that this will be a time for me to receive instead of give and that I will have to be carried. That really saddens me because I love to give, and I love to care for others and I have always had the strength to do so. I obviously have knowledge to learn from this whole ordeal. Knowledge that can best be learned by going through the trial.
I will gain Spiritual strength and wisdom. I will not walk this path alone. Heavenly Father and Jesus will be by my side as will many friends and family members. When things get bad and life seems dark I am to focus on the Light of Christ. I pray that I will be able to always do that. Lord help me through this day.

Melinda called me last night and told me that she would be with me for the next two days. She arrived this morning at 1:00. I am glad that she will be with me. I know that I have all the love and prayers of my entire family and all my friends, for that I am very grateful. Thank you so much.

I may end up staying in the hospital tonight but I will stay in touch with you as soon as I can.

I love you all!