Mixed Emotions

Monday brought a mixed bag of emotions for me.
Sunday morning we discovered that one of the tires on my car was flat. After church dad took a look at it and discovered that it was more than flat; it was shot! So Monday morning I had to be to my doctors appointment in the cities by 10. That meant I would have to leave before I could get another tire. Luckily, Cecilia had the day off and asked if she could go with me to the cities.
Sunday after church and a long nap I went in to visit with my dad. I picked Beatie up so that she could visit with dad as well. She told me that Cecilia wanted me to stop by Wal-Mart to talk to her about what time I would pick her up. I did and I told her what had transpired. She told me to go back over to her house and pick up the truck so we took her truck to the cities.
My appointment with Dr. Finne went very well. I asked him a bunch of questions. I can have my animals again! He said that he has farmers with colostomies and they lift 100 pound feed sacks all the time. I won't be lifting 100 pounds but I might be able to do the 50 pound bags! I need to build up more strength and stamina before I go for 50 pounds.
After we were done in the cities Ce and I came back to the farm to pick up the rim with the flat tire on it. Dad had taken it off and set it in the garage the night before. I took it into Binsfield tire and had them replace it. I knew that both front tires were bad so I bought two and told them that when I had the new tire on the car I'd bring the car in so they could replace the other tire.
It wans't long and I was back in. The owner was surprised at how quick I was back in and asked me if I wanted a job. We had a good laugh as I told him that I am notrious for breaking bolts. I asked him to check the lug nuts on the tire that I had put on as I wasn't sure if I had them all tightened correctly. He told me that I did a good job! I was pleased to hear that.
Monday was a great day but then came Monday night.
I checked my e-mail and found out that Andy was joining the Army. My heart sank. I knew that one day my children would all graduate from college and that their jobs would likely take them all over the country and possibly all over the world. That day has or is coming fast. I don't know why "letting go" is so hard. It always has been. I feel like a spent dandelion. The wind has come up and my offspring are scattering to the wind. I was so down in the dumps yesterday that I could hardly motivate myself to get moving. It is going better today. Don't get me wrong - I am glad that all of you are doing so well and I am glad that you are all strong in the Gospel. I am relieved to know that you know and understand the concept of prayer and of recieving blessings. I am relieved to know that you have chosen the Lord to be your guide and that you seek the blessings of heaven before you make major decisions in your lives. I love you all and the time has come where I need to turn you all back over into Heavenly Father's hands and let him take care of you. I wish you all the best where ever you go.
Melinda, you leave the US again tomorrow and I know how excited you are to be going but I have to tell you that I worry about your saftey. I'll keep you in my prayers. Please stay in touch.
I love you all!
Mom